feeling..

why is my heart so pain??
why is my heart pumping so fast??
why when i hear your voice...
i feel like crying??
why why why???
is it at night my mood will turn to emo dy ar??

why i will be angry when you don't even come and find me the whole day??
why must i always go and find you 1st??
is this a must of a bf work??
i already try to not care about it dy...
cuz i know that you are busy..
but why will i still feel so emo??

why must my mood be like that??
i know that you has good mood to chat with me...
but then why i still feel like..
you are talking to me like just a normal friend??
is just like a Q&A conversation...
i ask and you just ans..

why when you msg me at 12+am..
i don't really feel like replying liao de??
is it because i wait till so long??
although before that i do hope to receive your msg or call...
who can actually tell me why i will feel like that??

when you are busy...
will you forget about your bf or gf??
won't even contact them for the whole day??
only will contact your bf or gf when you are really done..
meaning about 12 or 1 or 2am??
will you do that??
i know that is your personality..
so it won't change..

i know that if i say all this...
you sure will say that...
i treat you like that before..
so you want to let me try the feeling..

just now you say that i last time also didnt think about you...
just you think about me..
pai tou..that reason you use is for so long time ago..
and after that time...
i'm the one who think of you most of the time..
till now...i think got 6 or 7months dy ok??
i think of you more than you think of me..

just now i ask you all those question..
because i want to see how many times you really think of me..

sorry..
i know that you will say..
like this so small case i also cant tahan..
but you can tahan...
sorry lo..
im not that jiang qing de..
my heart is very small..
cant support de..

this few days at night...
i cried...
my tears don't know why will auto drop...
why this will happen??
cuz of my bao ying mar??


this is all i want to say..